Thanks dreamseeker. I've always struggled a bit with my self-image, remember hating myself physically from a very young age. Of course now looking back now I can see that actually there was nothing very wrong with how I looked - whereas there really is now, I have never been this overweight. Maybe it's a good sign that I care a little now. My kids wanted to see my wedding dress the other day and it was quite sad wondering where that person had gone.

Hope it goes well for you talking about it with your T on Monday. I find it quite scary talking about my weight (and other things too), because if I say how much I hate myself to others, there's always that possibility that they agree, and then I really am stuffed.

My parents were supposed to be arriving today but they missed their connection and are still in the UK - hopefully they will make it tomorrow, and we will be able to pick them up (lots of snow here and more forecast for tomorrow). It will be good to have them here, to be able to show them what life is like here - our first visitors since we moved. It's been tough on them, we lived about 30 mins away from them so they have been really missing us, and their grandchildren particularly. They were really upset about missing the flight. Fingers crossed for tomorrow.