I joined over the weekend, as I needed someone somewhere to vent to and get help.

I have PTSD with si behavior and have had it under control for quite some time. I keep it under control by being extremely busy. I work a full time job (working with adults with disabilities) and a part time job (working with children) I have Godchildren whom I spend an inordinate amount of time with (no complaints, I love them both dearly they are 7 & 4)

Well this past week I was in an auto accident and totally destroyed my vehicle. I was injured (not seriously) but am having difficulty with pain and with movement. I was already in pain from arthritis and congenital hip dysplasia but felt like I could handle that and was working and being active as long as I took my pain meds. Well this pain is different I cannot function and have been unable to work.

my insurance company has been great on the phone but nothing seems to be moving. i need to fill out so much paperwork and none of it has arrived. i need to get the accident report and am getting the run around. Dr's want me to have tests but i cannot get approval from the car insurance company until i fill out the paperwork that they have not sent me yet. i called my disability insurance people who have promised 3x to send the paperwork but have not.

i am having difficulty concentrating--- the flashbacks are pretty severe (when i am not busy they come pretty frequently and severly.) I cannot get out to see doctor's.. the dr. today said i probably had a concussion and that is where the difficulty concentrating, the confusion and the headaches and blurred vision are from.

Today my neighbor took me to the dr. and I took a taxi home---the taxi got a flat tire and he drove on it that way for miles until the rim started smoking. -- he then stopped changed the tire-- and wanted me to continue the ride home with him. NO WAY i just had an accident--i wasnt riding in a car that wasn't working properly. he then proceeded to argue with me about paying him (for what) i asked him repeatedly to call dispatch for a new taxi and he wouldn't. He then left me there on the side of the major thruway. thank goodness i bought a cell phone the other day and could call for assistance.

My T whom i used to see is on vacation -- my psych doc is useless and my family is on vacation. my friends have been pretty good but they work too.

I need a new car but cannot get one until the one in the wreck is settled with all the paperwork. (which i have not received) i am told it will take several days after they pick my car up and bring it to the salvage yard before I can get a figure on what it is worth ----- well they have not even picked the car up yet.

I feel like i am living in limbo --- in an everlasting nightmare that will never end. i am afraid to leave my house -- what will happen next?

MY bf's car broke down in NYC the other day---so i have not seen him and by the time it gets repaired he will be going on vacation with his son. (they are leaving Wed. morning)........ how much more can I take!

Sorry for the ranting but I have had enough!