so....

After 27 years of being on this earth...

I have finally acheived a penetration-only orgasm! TWICE. In a row.

Although for the dickens I cannot figure out whats different now. It was a solitary experience, though I was thinking of bf, could it be the boy? *scratches head*

I almost cried, after it happened. I thought oh thank god and had this huge feeling of releif, I thought that would never happen for me, that I would always require extensive clitoral stimulation, that I could never just let go during sex and have it happen both ways.

Something has changed. Some part of me that was afraid, locked up, whatever from whatever...it has let go. It has decided that its ok for this to happen.

Very excited to try with the real deal and see if the same thing happens. I sort of suspect that it won't at first, this feels more like a process to me.