But I quit smoking after my 1st child was born 2 1/2 mos. premature due to my smoking while pregnant. I couldn't quit for myself but the guilt of inflicting that on her spurred me on to quit. Not easy, though. At work some guy was a jerk--so I bought a pack of cigarettes (& some booze--another problem I had) & went home & indulged & felt sorry for myself & then GOT MAD! This jerk was not going to make me addicted to smoking again. I was already really mad about the cigarettes having such control over me.

So I quit for about 15 YEARS & then fell into a deep depression & STARTED SMOKING AGAIN! The doc couldn't believe it, but he didn't know how bad depressions are. So smoked (guiltily & w/lots of shame & tried to hide it from my kids) for another 7 yrs. or so & THEN I got on Lithium after finally being dxed w/bipolar (though my mother was bipolar & that should have been a clue but didn't get dxed until I changed to an IM doc--right away she said--bipolar mixed episode--right on the money.

And as soon as the Lithium kicked in I couldn't believe how good I felt & decided to make GOOD decisions for myself--like quit smoking). I did quite smoking but ther Lithium has causded kidney damage so off that...