Oh sw, that's not good. Taking away your privileges does sound like a punishment and if I were you, I would feel very scolded! And, as serafim said, she gave you a mixed message about the apology. In my opinion, the first ("you don't need to apologize") wasn't true, coming from her. She may not realize this. All of her other behaviors indicate that she wants and needs you to apologize to her -- and even your apology isn't enough, because she's still angry. She should be able to deal with your anger without needing an apology. She should not take away your weekly call though I would understand taking away email contact but ONLY with a VERY clear explanation that it is not your fault, just something that will probably work better in the future. She is your T for Christ's sake!! Not your mother or your friend or anyone who should need anything at all from you.

Oh sw.. if you're going to stay with this T (which, if I were you, I would carefully reconsider), don't accept the conclusion you reached in that session. Keep pressing. This rupture is not over.

(((((sw))))) You've been so brave so far. You can do this. Get what you need from therapy, ok?