Hi thank you for your friendship... i also suffer from BPD and i get depressed often but usuallly for short durations 2 to 3 hours and very intense almost makes me feel want to die... i understand my depression but i don't know how a long term depression would be like... it must be awful to endure!
Here is my experience... i lost a lot of things in my life friends money opportunities you name it i had it and lost it... so i see something on TV or come across a person that has what i use to have and lost and i get really sad because i am attached to stuff then i start dwelling on my loss and get really in a very dark mood and sick to my stomach the experience in very intense and stressful also when i feel presssured to do something or when things break down or when i make mistakes all those are triggers for my depression i really get down and hard on myself and blame myself for everything that goes wrong and i trained the people around me to blame me too... so i am creating this reality for myself... today i heard a talk about the law of attraction that what we have in our life is what we attract to ourself so maybe i should start to attract positive things and control my negative reactions to things and be more loving and forgiving toward myself and others!
I hope that would help my dear and beautiful new friend
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Originally Posted by beautifulmadness
I have been depressed for about 3 months now and have lost the happiness that was in my heart. I constantly want to sleep as it is a time that I'm not thinking or feeling. I am about 6 months behind in school and trying to motivate myself to get it together and get back to it. Doing things I usually enjoy don't interest me any more, I've gained weight and I cannot get motivated to start walking.. I get myself pumped up about it every night but the next day never gets any closer to "doing " anything. I've been here before and I know one day it will get better.. I just wish the "one day" would hurry up and get here.. Thanks for "listening".. this site is the only place I feel I can express my feelings without someone saying that they understand when they have no clue.. 
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