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Originally Posted by zooropa
I did go through & throw away the blades that I use for SI this morning. Threw them in the outside garbage cans so I can't get them back out later 
then I called T & let her know. She had the ultimate typical therapist reaction: "how do you feel about that?" LOL I think she was surprised, b/c she called me last night to see if I had done it yet & I said no, I was too tired & scared to dig out the blades, that it might make me start cutting, so the plan was for me to call her this morning & she'd be on the phone w/me while I gathered them up & threw them away. But I wanted to do it alone, so when I called her it was done & I think she was surprised.
Anyway, it's done.  |
I know the feeling of not wanting to be near the item you might use to SI I get so scared of haveing a shower to calm down in case I do some to SI I get so many intrusive thought when I feel at risk of SI and they make me feel like if I even move a mussle or some thing will come in to my head that I cant ignore anylonger. I started to SI at about 7y old with very hot water. My OCD seem to have kept my Si in check. As my OCD gets better I just hope to be able to not SI anymore.