Thanks for all of your hugs and your insight. I'm hesitant to bring it up with T because I'm going away for a couple of weeks, and then she'll be going away soon on xmas holidays. So I don't want to stir up too many of those "needy" emotions if she won't be around.... then again I'll probably end up feeling them anyway.

I guess I'm scared to talk about it. It's frustrating needing and wanting so much, yet knowing that it won't come.

Take care