(((((Berries))))))
I know exactly what you mean, I have been like that all my life, I have learned to live with it over time, I have to talk to myself a lot. Lately with the help of my T I have made a lot of progress in that area, instantly when the cars are on the starting line, I hold up a STOP sign, take a reality check and it gets better.
Berries, you are very lucky to have a mother who cares and supports you, and your mom is a lucky mother to have a caring, sweet daughter.