I was like this with my family for the longest time. Now I don't care what they think of me. You know Mary you might need to heal from your mom. If that makes any sense. When you grow up, and your family tells you that your basicly nothing but a piece of crap then it can live with us forever. Just because we don't live up to someone's standards, doesn't mean that we arent worthy. I have learned that my family is dysfunctional just like me, if not worse. I can't stand being around their drama.