Thanks, Michele....
But you know...I've disassociated myself from my family forever now. Like you, I have nothing to do with them, (and mine family is HUGE...lol). The only sibling I have anything to do with anymore is my younger sis, of 3 years, Donna. But even she is so stuck in the effects from our upbringing, mostly cuz of mom, that she can't see ANY good in living.
I don't seek approval from her, exactly. I just maintain a sissy bonding with her, cuz we've always been close.

Although, I've always been the centerpoint of my entire family, mostly with all siblings....was the one who they all went to to find out what's what with the other, instead of them going to the other themselves.
I was always the "friendly" one amongst us all. I was always the one keeping peace...."finding a reason TO keep the peace". That's me....Merciful Mary....holds true to this day.

But is this really all about the past and family? This is where I sorta reach that same barrier. I've physically removed the source of origin of (what I think may be) the problem, yet the psychological effects remain?

Yes. I do need to get over the effects of mom.
Kristian's right. Focus on what IS, and not what was. Now, to do just that. Not easy.

Thanks again, Michele....Yourra sweetie.

Shangrala

(I so love "Happy Face"....lol)