I can definitely relate to that, sometimes I feel like if I move at all I will set off some chain of events that is out of my control, like the inertia of holding still is all that's keeping me from breaking into a million pieces or flying into a rage, or cutting. Those times I usually just lay in bed & cry.

That said, it's been a week today since I started this thread, and a week since I last cut, so I guess I'm giving myself a little pat on the back here. It was a hard week & my desire to SI was at a 5 out of 5 most days, but I made it through, thanks in part to support from here.