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pat yourself on the back for not being able to go through with it.....yes it could be your body and mind telling you NO not anymore.. That is wonderful....Yes it totally makes sense....
I too hope someday I will be at the point you are now and find it harder to cut then it is to be safe....right now I can't say that about me at all....so you should be proud of yourself....I am so PROUD of you....