I dont know where to post this. I am feeling so awful. I have been crying on and off this evening. And feeling sui and what I should plan and how my children will be effected. I want to SI but I didnt b/c I will be out of control. I feel like I have had enough of everything, of trying, of whatever the problem is, of working on issues, Im tired of thinking. I am tired of going to therapy. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. Im tired of life.

I need hugs, but I dont want to post something asking for hugs b/c I dont feel deserving of hugs. I am just sick of crying and crying. I wont ever get what I need in this life and I dont know why I am trying at all. I feel all alone. All I do is take care of my children and husband and I feel like I am falling apart. Even medication doesnt work. I wish it would all end.