Ahhhhhhhh Seeker - sorry you are in a "funk". I know u were looking forward to your trip , but like already said, perhaps going off alone right now wouldnt be the best idea. (We have nice rocks and stuff where I live - shorter trip too .....come on over ! )

You ran into a real jerk with that guy - not YOUR fault ! Living alone HAPPY sure beats the heck outta living with someone and being miserable (ie - ur marriage). Dont give up yet on finding someone - u aren't "over the hill" !!

Get moving, dont allow yourself to hold up in your house, go to the air conditioned library, or to a movie ! (Be careful about stripping tho )

Post away - be u up or down - you have friends here!