thanks dreamseeker
Being unreasonable would be very hard for me. I'm very conscious to be a "good" client. I don't ask for much at all in therapy - I would feel guilty for making her get me a glass of water when she offered. It's energy draining having such big needs but with no voice to ask.

I love that you're coloring! who doesn't like to color? My T also suggested dragging out my childhood toy, and I bought a brand new journal today! hopefully it'll serve as a new way to communicate stuff to T when I feel stuck.

I agree that you sometimes need care as well... please keep us posted on how this aspect of your healing goes. I'm certainly interested.

Take care