I have been having a difficult time the last few days. Somehow managed to end up feeling depressed again. I was doing good for a short time. And I hate that I've somehow managed to let that frickin demon back in my head! I'm so sick of it. Just tired of being overwhelmed by this.

I have a session this afternoon and I don't want to go. I don't want to cry over what appears like nothing. I just want to stay home. I was in much better spirits the last couple sessions. I didn't feel so anxious, and unhappy. I don't know who flipped the damn switch to turn off the happy!

I know I can get out of this funk. Again. But these last few days I just can't seem to. Can't find a reason to. In my real life I feel like I don't have a reason to be a happy person.

How or where do I find the strength, the desire to get better when I feel like this?