Feeling up and down still.
I probably should tell my T how things are going in my head but she is out of the office this week with family situations and I know she can be called in times like these but I really don't want to bother her.
I feel high. I have been on cymbalta for 5 nights now.
It is making me feel hyper. It makes me feel better and I have more energy but in a dangerous type of way.
I know how to take care of myself...the question is...will I? Will I find the strength and hope to take care of myself?
I feel like if I am honest about what really is going on inside of me people will look at me with anger. No one truly understands the way my mind works.
I burned a new CD on Sunday with songs that I can scream too. Two songs that are totally catching my thought process are "Cleaning out my closet" but Eminem and "Don't Try Suicide" by Queen. I am obsessed to keep listening to them over and over again.
Anyway, I have to vent some where. I don't want to tell the wrong people and end of in the hospital. I don't have that kind of patience in my life. Been there, done that..want make my head stop spinning!