I thought the evaluation would be simple, as I HAVE been feeling much better and have been consistently going to work unless I was sick with the flu *I'm going on flu meds starting today*.

This evaluation is to see if I can return to school in January.

Apparently the evaluator is concerned because
1. I was FORCED off leave/she doesn't understand why
2. I "don't have sufficient support and am not on meds"
The second one upsets me because I HAVE been going to therapy consistently, I am really trying to make therapy work. My therapist has not had availability so I have not been able to see her as much since returning to Rochester. I have an appointment with a NEW therapist with MORE availability for this reason on December 1st. Apparently because I'm not also taking meds this might not be enough.
She thinks I don't care about therapy - I do. I tried to express this to her but apparently I didn't try hard enough. Apparently I needed to tell work I couldn't be there because of therapy - not possible financially AND they REQUIRE that I am consistent in my attendance to work in order to return to school

So now I'm really nervous about how this will work out

I REALLY want to get back in. I miss my cello, I miss going to class with my friends rather than going to work with people I don't really know and hand out food in bags just to BARELY scrape by financially, and have to wake up REALLY early in order to practice before my muscles ache from the heavy lifting I need to do at work.


*scared face*