I read this a few days ago and couldn't reply to it because it pushes some of my own buttons. I relate to that feeling that people don't want to know. It hurts to hell. My family care deeply but given the opportunity to turn away and pretend it isn't happening they will. Friends....ha....the friends i've had in the past have generally all turned a blind eye. I feel so badly for you when you say you can't keep pretending to be someone you're not. I get that. I wish i had some magic words to make it all okay, i pray for someone to say those words daily.......But i hear you, and i really relate.