I don't know why my husband does'nt listen when I try to talk to him. If I have a panic attack he gets mad. When I get scared he's very flipant about it and says things like "what's new". I don't have any emotional support around here when it comes to my mental illness. I am so tired of feeling like I'm in his way all the time. I am in everyone's way. All the time. I can't go shopping or out to eat because I am scared to be out like that especailly with the swine flu going around like it has. I'm just here.