well i went to see T today. It was all going ok. Then T decides that now is a good time to work on the termination. Not the beginning of the year or even the middle she waits till a month and a half til the end of the year to tell me we need to work on termination. I'm sorry but it just doesn't seem right or fair to me that its taken so long. I said i really couldn't do it and she shouldn't have waited so long to work on the termination.. Cos now we don't have enough time to work on it and its just not fair at all. She doesn't know it was our last session ever though i didn't tell her i just dropped hints that i couldn't go through with the termination and i said outright i was horrible at goodbye so wouldn't be saying goodbye. But rather just leaving instead. I have no T now. I have a social worker that does counselling but thats not the same. And i have a pdoc. I cried all session today and still have puffy eyes from it. I just want hugs and for people to tell me nice things cos i'm feeling at risk but don't worry cos i have support for it. .