I understand now the google thing. You had the blog with his name in it. I actually googled someone I had been looking for and found a poem by her on another person's website. Google seems to grab the weirdest things.

I can understand you writing that review, and truthfully, I think it may help someone else. I dont think there is anything wrong with what you wrote. Dt also did this weird rant thing when I was there, taking up too much time on politics (especially for someone who shared so little of herself). I didnt really care what her views were, and then minimizing my difficulties, just like your ex-t. If there was anything that I felt was damaging, it was the minimizing stuff. I questioned myself and my feelings a lot when she did that. I remember she once said to me, "Well, your are a little depressed, with occasional, fleeting suicidal thoughts." Occasional? Fleeting? Was she for real? Was she not listening?

I like what you told your new t about not missing important things about you b/c you exercise and play trumpet (so cool, btw!). And it sure IS a whole other ballgame being in the hotseat and having the focus on you and your issues. Maybe there was a part of both of us that felt relieved that the T show was taking up so much time and we didnt have to work on the hard stuff? I even think there was some relief (along with dis-belief) when she interpreted things in a wrong way. It wasnt that I didnt want her to understand and help me, I did, but when she was so way off the mark, I think a part of me felt, Oh, good, I can still hide....