Dear Psy,
You're speaking the words of anyone who has ever lost in love. I don't want to add to your hurt, but it sounds like she is in love with someone else, and just offering you friendship. In the meantime, you continue to long for her in a way she is not offering to you. I do know how it feels to wake up each morning still thinking about someone who has rejected you. It takes a long time for that to not be a presence in your thoughts, but I am thinking you should strive NOT to think of her romantically.
Are you still in high school?, college?, or employed full or part-time? Whatever your circumstances, try to start opening up to the people you encounter, meeting new women, not concentrating just on your circle of friends who are also HER friends. Hanging with the same people will only continue to remind you of her, and you will encounter many women who find you attractive!
Seeker