I just need to put some words down. non of this will make sense as it is just me rambeling.

I feel really down, depressed, exhausted, wish I was suicidal but the meds they have me one protect me from going down that path.

I feel so alone and not wanted. I can't seem to do anything right for my hsuband or my life. They good thing I have is my boy. Even that is getting me down, just because I don't have the engery to be with him.

He deserves so much better than what I feel I can give him right now and all he wants is me.

My faith is gone, well what little faith I was growing towards. IDK, I guess I don't have any more ramblings