Last night, I actually had a very distressing dream about going to court and having to face the stalker/sociopath. There was no resolution in the dream, and blame was even placed upon me with my own defense lawyer referring to me in disparaging ways regarding sexuality. I think just writing here about the experience resurrected my pain and confusion about the person. I tend to try to "fix" things, you know. There is NO fixing with such a person. In my conscious life, I know that intellectually. And, of course, it happened almost 7 years ago, and I have moved on with my life. Despite that, I have also had recurring dreams about killing him (with the help of my daughter and best galfriend), then being investigated by the police who visit me asking penetrating questions. I think this too points to my sense of responsibility, that no relationship should be so wrong, and that I should have somehow been more perceptive, thus, avoiding the disastrous climax.
I guess I've learned from it that some people just can't be helped, and that in the end we are only responsible for our won reactions and behaviors. Life goes on!
Seeker