Thanks so much Nowhere,

I have T in just a few hours, I know we will talk about this and I know I need to maybe do some EMDR on some of that anger. That intense anger is telling me something and I find if I truly feel what I am feeling (which is new to me) it gets me to someplace of understanding myself or my feelings.
For me I have PTSD, so numbing my emotions is something I do without even thinking about it. So when an emotions is "hot" my T has found to go with it in the here and now. I know my T wants to have me settle down before she leaves on vacation, but this is something that has to be dealt with. She did tell me I could see her another time this week, since she will is gone all next week. I am thinking of diving right in with the hard stuff today and hopefully doing a more meditative and calming appointment before she leaves.
My mother in law is coming to live with us for 2 weeks over Thanksgiving, (for the first time) plus I have 30 people coming over to eat that day. I need some sense of calmness or I will burst I think. She isn't the most nicest of MIL's if you know what I mean. Plus I have a term paper and a short story to write before Thanksgiving. The list goes on and on.
Thanks so much for talking with me, I enjoy talking to you and listening to your insights on this and other things. I talk about my T being new, but really I have been working with her for a year now. It doesn't seem like it though. I just need to keep plugging along, and trying to do my best, and live who I was meant to be.