Last night I had a panic attack due to flashbacks (I'd post this in PTSD but I don't want to give people ideas). It was the worst one that I have had in close to 2 years. My heart was racing and I was sweating. I was shaking so bad that my entire bed was moving with me and it was causing my matress to slide around. No matter how hard I tried to get air it felt like I wasn't getting any oxygen. I started hyperventalating and was freaking out cause it was hurting my chest. I knew even if I waited for it to be over(I waited almost an hour) that I wouldn't be able to sleep because everytime my eyes shut it made it worse. So I did the only thing I knew how to to make it stop. I cut and I cut and I cut some more. First I started on a new section but knew that it would be harder for me to put bounderies on stopping, so I switched to fillling in the heart that was healed. When I had gotten the entire thing done my panic attack was gone and all that was left was this intense sting. I felt way better though. I cleaned up and went to sleep really easily. Now it till stings just as bad which is rare bt I really don't mind it. I just had to be able to tell someone. Sorry if I triggered any of you. I was right for not posting it in the PTSD section...right?