Everyone has given such great advice that I can only ad one thing. even if you go into the hospital for an operation, you still go home with a lot of healing to do. As people have said, getting int touch with your doctor, maybbe a therapist, and seeing about breaking your isolation are all good things to do to make sure you don't lose any of the progress you might have made. Hope the sun starts shining for you, gingercat. Hugs and let the healing commence