Aww thanks BlueMoon6 It makes me happy to know I helped someone else. Yes, you should paint! It is so wonderful of a feeling for me...it makes me feel proud of myself...a feeling I lack most to all of the time. If there's one thing, and only one thing keeping me from completely hating myself, it's my art. No one can create what I create, becuz its a part of me! In a way my painting IS me! I don't think alot of people understand that about art...its all emotion.

I wish I could figure out a way to get counseling. Maybe I should make an appointment with the school counselor. For a little bit last spring I was going to go see a psychiatrist at the local hospital, but I stopped going n stopped taking the meds they put me on becuz they made me feel more crazy and emotional! Maybe I can try going back, but like I said, my parents will be kicking me off their health insurance in less then a month...then I join the other 45 million uninsured ppl in this country >.< can anyone say healthcare reform?? lol