Shadow is right... This is all basically in the Fourth Step of NA/AA. As an adult, you have to take responsibility for your part of situations. Well, you don't have to, but the longer you run from responsibility, the longer your addiction is going to take you down, in my opinion. Stop wollowing in what happened yesterday, it's done and over with. Start focusing on today and DO something about your problems now while you can. You didn't stumble in this forum by accident... You get out of the 12 Steps (or whatever program you decide to use) what you put into it. Same goes with life... Show life gratitude, you'll get blessings in return. Stand with one foot in yesterday, one foot in tomorrow, then you're crapping on today and nothings going to go as it should. Best of wishes, friend.