why the need to be so rude and snappy?. I'm sorry, i did not realize i would upset people so much with my questions. I guess i thought the trigger warnings would be enough.....

and what's with making the assumption that i've come here to brag?. I thought this was a place to vent about this stuff.

hope, i also keep this to myself. i dont talk about it with family or even my therapist..it's too weird and uncomfortable to talk about in real life, that's why i came here and asked...figured that maybe someone might know.

why the need to give details? i guess i felt like it was something i needed to talk about and get out in the open. I've never really talked about it like that and now that im pretty much recovered from SI, it's much easier to talk about...i didn't even really realize how detailed i was being about it, but i didn't think it would be that big of an issue.

everyone has asked me "why do i even want to know?" well heck, why not? It's something im just curious to know and i've been curious for a long time.

again...sorry i seemed like i was "bragging" or whatever.

-Becka