alright..now these replies i got are REALLY bothering me! i went and read more posts on this board...plenty of which are extreamly graphic and detailed...like some of the poems that people have written about their SI...yet no one has jumped down THEIR throats about it. I gave the trigger warnings!i felt like talking about it!I felt like i needed to know something after all these months of not knowing!! and this was the only place i felt comfortable doing so! I was not "bragging"--what a rude thing to say to someone!!!. It's not fair. why me? what the heck did i do wrong??

-becka