Gosh isn't life just one long whirlwind? One day can completely be changed by words or events ...

Today Tony cuddled me and told me how much he loved me and wanted to make this marriage work. He says he feels differently now he has had cancer, that before we were leading two separate lives and now, because I was texting him in hospital and nursing him and being there everyday he realises just how much he loves me, that this illness has changed everything, he was tearful which is so rare for him . I know this will take some trying, because seriously it's been bad for so long, but maybe it will work, he knows that I need lots of affection, I know he isn't the demonstrative type, but maybe if we both try hard it will work . I so didn't want to throw away 23 years . I just needed to hear that he still loved me because I really didn't think he did ..... and it's been that way for the last 5 years but we somehow just existed. Please, I would love positive thoughts if that's ok to ask? I'm not particularly religeous, I believe in spirit .... that there is a higher being .... but not Christianity.

Thank you. It feels kind of strange, after so much happening this year, to actually hear him saying he still loves and wants me (happy tears)

It's such a small thing, just hearing I love you, but it brought the sun out full blast and the angels singing. I know I'm nuts .... but it's just all I've ever wanted K xxx*long, drawn out relieved sigh .......... thank you for listening .......