I can understand this. It seems like whenever stuff starts going well for me and I might be, *gasp*, actually happy with my life and where I am, I end up heading back towards being depressed. That's kind of where I am now. Things are going well for me, for the first time in a long time, so why am I struggling now? I think my brain is out to sabotage me.

I do think that sometimes people who struggle with depression have an advantage over other people because we're less likely to take our happiness for granted. There's something to be said for that, I guess.