I'm sorry about that Renwolf. Maybe your depression comes in bouts?

I think your last point was very true. That people who have/ are suffering from depression are grateful for their happiness and don't take it for granted. I stumbled across that thought when writing my diary. I was trying to think of the good things that could come out of what i've been through and that was one of them!

Butterfly i do try to embrace it. But that doesn't gaurantee that my happiness will stay with me.