It seems to me that ever since I have been branded with the dx of bipolar 1 disorder that I am not allowed to have "natural emotions" that aren't attributed to my illness.

I barely have a relationship with my only immediate family member who is my brother.

When I am happy and excited (laughing) because something good happened...etc I am accused of "going manic" or having a "manic episode" by my brother.

When I am sad about something that is upseting to me or whatever the situation may be, I am questioned about whether or not I am "depressed" or in a state of "depression". Or it is attributed to a mood swing.

When I am angry or frustrated because something has upet me it is attributed to a mood swing. Or that I am being confrontational.

My brother seems pleased with my behavior and/or emotions when I leave any and all emotions at the door. I must be quiet, reserved, polite, unemotional, and submissive towards him.

Recently, I sent a short and to the point e-mail to my brother because these are the types of e-mails he sends me. Maybe 2 sentences if I am lucky. I told him that I wanted his things removed from my basement and that he had till next spring/summer to do so. I did say hello and take care in the e-mail. He replied by saying that I was being confrontational. I replied by saying he misinterpreted what I said and said that I was in a hurry and just sent a quick e-mail to him...etc. Haven't heard from him since then.

Are people with Bipolar Disorder allowed to feel natural emotions like anger? happiness? sadness? without them being attributed to a "mood swing" or due to their illness?