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Originally Posted by lonegael
Hi Inner zone! this might be true that your marriage with your husband might be lacking somethIng (that does sound like you guys are barely hanging on), But I also know that when I am hypomanic or mixed, there is no way my man can handle what I want. My appetite for all types of interaction, not just sex, goes off the charts! After a bit he just sort of staggers off, curls into a ball and starts self hypnosis (not actually, but you get hte picture  ) Just make real sure that you don't chuck your guy for a manic lapse of sense, OK? If you are sure you're level, then that's another matter, your judgement is your own. Good luck! |
Yes. This is exactly what I am struggling with right now. Trying to get a handle on this hypomanic lapse of sense. It *should* be obvious that it is. But ... it's talking so much to me and trying to drown out sense. And I keep thinking, "yeah, maybe it's not realistic, but maybe, just maybe..." and it's off to the races. The Voice of Reason keeps saying, "But you really don't know anything about this person! They could be a charming psychopath for all you know!" Yet I keep emailing. Worse, I woke up this morning, actually finding myself thinking about detouring on a trip I'm taking to his state (coincidentally), even though it's quite a big detour of hundreds of miles!-- just to, well... kind of spy(!!!) (Not like upclose, by their house or anything, just, well crap, I don't even know!) And I'm worried that *he* might be crazy???!!! Where is my mirror? Seriously, it's not like I'm going to just happen to run into people that know him to ask what they think! SO VERY unrealistic, yet it runs around and around in my mind. I *do* tend to have my most unbalanced thoughts when I first wake up.
Guess it's safe to say that I'm definitely obsessing, and probably hypomanic. It's kind of confusing because other usual signs are barely on my radar...but if I think really hard, I guess there are a few. Lack of insight?
Haha on the self-hypnosis, lonegael! I hear you, except that I don't even want sex with him anymore and the last few times were notably uneventful, even using my considerable powers of fantasizing. But in general, I usually just hang out in my room, but if hypomanic, look out! I'll come out and
a mile a minute and by the metric ton. Usually the husband will talk right across me, but he can barely get a word in. Or cleaning in a whirlwind? He's learned that he better start in too, or my mouth is sure to follow. Maybe your husband can teach mine these self-hypnosis techniques! He needs them, because I can be exhausting. And I know it, but can't seem to stop. I'm not getting much done and not having these usual signs, which is contributing to the confusion.
Yeah, guess I'm not as level as I thought. I won't chuck 25 years, though I'm not entirely sure I won't do something stupid. (Like right now I am thinking, "but what if I emailed and said hey, I'm going to be in this city on these dates, do you want to drive 200 miles and meet for coffee?" (!!!)
Sorry to go on and on... but I don't have anyone IRL to bounce this off of, and it's driving me right up a wall.