Gosh, Lea, that's a hard one. Your mother may not be honest with you. How do you survive the next few weeks before you find out. Well, you could ask your father's permission to be privy to all communications with the doctor so you will know exactly what is going on but do you want to know exactly what is going on? Anxiety seems to prevail both ways. Do you believe in a higher power that you can turn this over to? Can you have the faith that everything is going to be alright? I am thinking about you and sending good thoughts.