3 months is an insane (sorry for the pun) amount of time to be manic. I can sure relate to the 8 minutes and 10 projects tho. I'm an ultra rapid cycler so I usually just organize things and put everything from one place to another then the depression hits and it stays there until the next cycle hits, but I have about 10 cycles a year, so you must be exhausted!
If you've been fully manic, not hypo manic for that long, either your Dr. doesn't grasp what you are going through, because without enough sleep you will go psychotic, anyone will, so either the Doc finds the right mood stabalizer or you made need to check in for a short stay in the hospital to get them to SEE what's going on with you.
Sometimes Mania is the hardest thing to describe because it doesn't SOUND like there's all that much suffering. However, the irritablity, the forgetfullness (even to take meds when we need them) the inability to sleep, and the ever present danger of losing touch with reality. ITs kind of like turning your car on and just reaving the engine. ITS really bad for the car. Remember that everything gets reaved, even your sex drive so be careful and watch your impulsive behavior so you'll be safe. It's not your fault, but the consequences will still be with you when you come back to earth.. Good luck, and hope you get some relief soon. Obviously since I'm writing this at 5:33 in the morning and haven't been to bed yet, I know from which I speak. but at least I'm safely at a computer in my own home! Please take care, and be insistent with the Dr.
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