Thanks for reading all. I have a pdoc appointment on Friday. I think maybe I go from manic to hypermanic with a constant depressive state present. I can go anywhere from a few hours of sleep till about 5. Thankfully I have xanax which does slow me down enough to at least lie (lay--which one???????) down for a while each day.

As far as the hospital goes, I really don't have that option. We have no charity hospitals around here and I have no insurance...