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Nov 19, 2009, 04:12 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2008
Posts: 265
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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I dont know where to post this. I am feeling so awful. I have been crying on and off this evening. And feeling sui and what I should plan and how my children will be effected. I want to SI but I didnt b/c I will be out of control. I feel like I have had enough of everything, of trying, of whatever the problem is, of working on issues, Im tired of thinking. I am tired of going to therapy. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. Im tired of life.
I need hugs, but I dont want to post something asking for hugs b/c I dont feel deserving of hugs. I am just sick of crying and crying. I wont ever get what I need in this life and I dont know why I am trying at all. I feel all alone. All I do is take care of my children and husband and I feel like I am falling apart. Even medication doesnt work. I wish it would all end.
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BlueMoon,
Sorry to hear that you are going through so much. I wish I had logged on a while ago. Reading your post allowed me not to feel so alone and I don't have kids and family to worry and be responsible for.
I wish I could give you some sound advice but I just know that I need to stay with the therapy and let my therapist know what is going on. This is tough stuff and I have been working at it and feel like I am a total failure and not getting anywhere.
I often wonder what the point is - but you have children and that is AWESOME that you want to be a better mother for them. I hope that you are discussing what is going on with your T - maybe you could do a phone call in the middle of the week to help things out. That is what we did for a while and it was helpful.
Wish I could say more - but thank you for posting. I think the weather does have a lot to do with it and you are going through a lot. Try to be gentle with yourself - this is also a hard time of the year in general.
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