Whilst I was having a smear test it happened to me and I freaked. It hurt and I was kind of 'foggy' for a while, couldn't concentrate, didn't really hear what the nurse was saying etc .... and it built up an anxiety attack and that led to a few bad days .... if it happens sexually I feel shame, but I'm learning to cope now and know that the shame was my abusers not mine. I tell myself I am 45 years old now, not a child and focus on something that reminds me I am in the NOW. My therapist gave me a small teddy, well a mouse a stuffed one which I carry with me sometomes and it reminds me of how she brings me into the present ... just a thought to work on, hope it helps, Ophelia xxxx (I had a stuffed mouse called Mickey when I was young who I 'talked' to all the time ....