I definetely understand where you are coming from. I suffer from major depression and often I get so low that I am unable to pull myself out from it. When this is the case I try to do a few things. One being that I call and talk to someone even if I really really may not want to, so that they can give me a positive spin on the subject matter and so they can also bring me down to the rational level rather than the irrational level that I usually am on. Also when I am down I tend not to want to do ANYTHING AT ALL! So I do just that kinda, but I find something funny to watch and eventually you're going to find something on there to laugh at and it helps bring me up so it's not so bad. Talking to someone really does help, even if it's just writing it down. Hope this was helpful to you. Just remember you will come out of it.