so i left an abusive relationship like 8 or 9 months ago for a man who treats me so much better and like how i should be treated. he makes me happy and we live together and im so happy with how everything is going now. but for some reason i can't get the abuse of my ex out of my head. i find myself thinking of it often and have even found myself trying to contact him a couple times without any good reason and feeling horribly guilty about it afterwards. i hate my ex and don't want anything to do with him and i esp want to forget about him and what happened but i can't and i don't understand why or what drives me to him. i don't love him anymore im in love with a much better man so what the hell?