wow, this sounds so much like me that I'm just...I never imagined there were other people out there with the same mixed up, "messy" mix of symptoms/emotions/brains/disorders/whatevers that I have, lol!

About your experience with DBT, I'm sorry it didn't work out for you. It sounds like they were very unorganized and ineffective. I guess I'm realizing how lucky I was to go through DBT with my T who is an excellent group facilitator & really kept the group on track, stuck with the schedule & homework assignments, etc week after week. Is there any way you can do DBT again in a different setting? It helped me SO much, it really gave me the tools & skills that saved & changed my life. I truly believe I wouldn't be alive now if it wasn't for DBT.