I get that difference, amanda, I guess I just need to ask my T to clarify it for me. I don't really care what *she* wants to call it that much, except it matters a lot to me whether she thinks it's something I actually experienced or something I'm imagining. I have a lot of issues about thinking people don't believe what happened because when I did tell them, they didn't. So now whenever I tell somebody, I always think they think I'm lying. This whole "hallucination" thing just plays right into that insecurity. ugh.