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Originally Posted by Nypheria
*scared now to comment* but always tell it like it is.
- You and your partner love each other allot no doubt, and now is the time to really be there for him. Show him love, and show him that even though things are going bad...life doesnt have to end now. Cancer is a terrible thing, Its claimed many of my family members as well and do know what its like to have to cope with that loss.
I too blamed G-d when my family started getting picked off one by one. But with time, it dawned on me. Cursing G-d will not make things better, and it wont bring my family back. When my Aunt (who pretty much raised me), got a reappearance of colon cancer that spread like wild fire all over, decided to do somthing besides think of her death. I spend time with her. I made her smile, gave her many hugs, and just was there for her till the day it did claim her life. She fought for an amazing 8 months, when Drs told her it would be lucky if she hit 3.
When she did pass away, I took comfort in knowing that I made her last few months worth living and also that she had that escape from the pain. Not thinking about what would I do without her, and thinking what can I do with her while she was living - was the most wonderful experience and really makes me love life.
Im sure he will say the same thing what Im about to say, When I do get cancer (as its probably going to happen), I dont want my last months being grieved upon and doom and gloom. I want to go places, spend time with my love ones, make them happy, see them smile - that way when I do pass, they have so many wonderful things to remember. Life is short for us all. While there is still breath in him, support and smile with him.
Dont cry till he is gone, and when he is - remember all those wonderful things you two accomplished in life and have seen together. Im sure he will do the same for you. 
Comfort him and tell him his health isnt a burden for you, and just be open together. |
Let me say first and foremost that your response to my post is exactly what I needed. People are so afraid to express their disappointment in GOD or which ever diety they revere. It has been an immensely emotional and difficult transition for me to go from devoute Christian to Doubting Thomas in the face of such personal turmoil. While this is NOT a forum for God bashing, and I never intended it to seem that way, what USED to be my greatest source of hope and comfort is now just exacerbating an already heart wrenching ordeal.
Thank you for sharing your "common experience" with such an internal conflict and having the courage to express it as a common experience that you share with me. You showed me that you DO understand how isolated one can feel when you stand out like a sore thumb from friends and family who insist that you maintain your faith in the wake of "ignored prayers and novena's."
Finally, thank you for your words of encouragement--you're exactly right in that my focus and my energy be directed at what time we have left and the quality of time spent until the time presents itself.