Stay safe
Do no harm
Keep talking about it.
I did
I did
I did.

Now I think there's no more
to say.
But the thoughts won't go away
They keep swirling.
Around and around and around
Til I'm dizzy.

The person can't have them
She's not really able to deal.
Do I have to continue to hold them
Or can I just yield to the cold and darkness
I feel.

There are feelings inside that wish to stay hidden
The anger
The hurting
I can't let their bidding
Let them awaken.

I want it dark and cold and empty
The feelings will not be pretty
Perhaps like being ripped open
And everything exposed.
Can't let that happen
NO
NO
NO

Not while alone.
Not without someone to hold me
Not without someone to save me
I'll be eaten up
Destroyed
Swallowed alive

Red demons all around me
Hisssing, Screaming
Fangs with blood dripping
Claws wide open to
Rip me apart.

I am dead now anyway...

Vicki