Well, I'm back after a 3 week absence. I convinced myself I didn't need this site. That I was being dramatic, ridiculous, and that there was nothing wrong with me. I watched 4 seasons of the tv show "Lost" on Netflix.com. I ended up enrolling in two more classes, which was the exact opposite of what I had planned to do three weeks ago. I mean I could barely keep up with one class...and now I am in 3??? Whoa. How did that happen? Wait I know why: I'm an emotional rollercoaster. I now have a 10 gallon fish tank with all the cool accessories, and I bought my son a light-up keyboard piano. And then it all started going down hill when my son decided to go a week without sleeping. He began screaming at the top of his lungs when he was happy and when he was mad for three days straight. I ended up with a headache, an ear ache, and absolutely NO patience what-so-ever. So I hired a babysitter to begin watching him on the weekdays. It's all going okay, I mean I'm managing just fine. Then it happens....

I get on stupid facebook (which I now have deactivated my account) and see that my husband is talking to an old friend that I absolutely hate. I had to say something about it, get defensive...and now my husband who is in Iraq hasn't spoken to me in days. Maybe he's busy, I don't know. But right now my mind is saying that he is trying to hurt me. So I'm bummed and unmotivated...and stressing cuz I'm in 3 freaking classes. I just want to crawl up into a little ball and sleep, but I can't do that. I've got responsibilities. I just want to be a happy little family. And I hate facebook because everyone puts on the persona that they are happy.

So now I'm just being a little baby. Can't deal with the fact I'm lonely. Can't deal with the fact that marriage isn't perfect. Can't handle the thought of being completely alone. So all in all...I'm back. I guess we can all be miserable and emotionally unstable together.